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When he turned to the wall in the end,
the spaciousness of creation opened
up to him. The former scene of
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his struggles began to turn gray,
and then vanished. His aspirations,
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which he had followed with hard will,
now embraced him irresistibly,
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with immeasurable lightness.
What had happened to him so far
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seemed like a dream,
with only sadness familiar
- and as in his previous life
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he knew he could wake up from that.
He wanted to change the impression
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of the unchangeable, the operetta-like
industrial version of feudalism.
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He was born as a true Democrat
and as much as he despised
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people who had gone to depravety out of hatred,
he never allowed hatred to his heart
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but he did not allow the flame of noble
anger to be extinguished either because
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he believed that by perseverance
all evil could be redeemed.
And although he was justified by
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the totality existence, partial daily
events sometimes surprised him with
more hideous evils than expected.
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He was shocked to note that his
gallant intentions were received by
envious rejection and a servant’s mocking grin.
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You know, it's time for forgotten country
of your dreams to come alive, but first,
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we have got to eat each other
up with demeaning petty interests.
That's what he wanted to avoid.
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He hoped that the nation sunk
into vegetation would recognize its
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true interest and elevate the
undeniable truth of the finally
liberated Hungarians, but the
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dream-like freedom caused a panic,
not the soul created for good
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got rid of its evils, instead,
unrestrained instincts got loose.
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They can't even interpret their own
interests, tearing each other apart
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from day to day in that misconception,
as if they were missing something.
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Monday doesn't understand Wednesday,
Tuesday doesn't even know Thursday,
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Friday and Saturday on Sunday.
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like he's saying something like that.
I (József Antall) could've made a proper order here
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but everyone would've been hurt
because everyone wanted their own
order and they wanted it to
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be at the expense of others,
but I wanted to be a prime minister
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who would've made sure that as
few people as possible were injured
in this wounded country. Thankfully,
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those who had reason to fear sought
to wound me and my minds to death,
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for mercy and love were interpreted
as synonymous with weakness.
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And those who had good reason
to avenge their ruined lives and
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the humiliation of their homeland
turned on me with more anger
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than my enemies because I refused
to assist in a bloodbath.
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Poor people don't know that the
martyr is a martyr at least twice.
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When they kill him, and when
they remember him, it's his fate,
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but now I know that the villains
live at least twice when they kill,
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and when they're forgiven.
I believed the debauched
souls would find each other.
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They wouldn't make each other sick.
That's not how it happened.
Sometimes I feel like it's time
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to accept predestination,
the will of the Lord,
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and maybe that forgotten nation
in that dream is not so lost, afterall.
